On the other side of the wall, the city was alive with noise and heat. A man walked along absentmindedly banging the concrete with a stick. A dog ran past, chasing another dog. No one knew about the lost girl; no one thought to wonder if there might be someone in trouble. She couldn’t hear them or see them. The distance was complete. She started walking again, listening to the sounds of her own feet in the narrow corridors. She counted to pass the time, then let her mind wander along with her steps. Steps sounded like water drops. Water became thirst. Thirst became summer. Summer became the outdoors, and the outdoors became a wave of fear that she might never escape. She tugged at the bottom of her dress as she walked, trying to make it cover more of her thin legs.
Outside, the dogs chased each other through the city streets. The lead dog, bony and long-snouted, became interested in a scent. He slowed to a trot and put his nose close to the sidewalk. A heavy steel grate had been pulled up and tossed to one side, exposing a large rectangular hole in the middle of the sidewalk. He paused at the opening and judged the distance to the bottom. He jumped in.
She tried to master the fear by continuing the free associations. Escape became freedom. Freedom became bird. Bird became fire. She paused to wonder about this last one, walking in silence and thinking. When the dog caught up to her—padding behind her in short, quick steps—she froze in terror, unable to see. The dog stopped, too, then walked forward and sniffed her knees and calves. She realized it was a dog and cautiously reached down to touch it.
She felt the wiry hair and the ears. She heard him panting. Sitting down suddenly, she grasped his head with both her hands, leaning forward so that their foreheads touched. She wept and asked, “Where have you come from?” At that moment she realized she had made the loop again; she was at the starting point where she had been so many times before. She could no longer remember when she had started, or how she had gotten lost or why. She closed her eyes but the darkness didn’t change. She felt like she was floating. Her hands grew limp and she pulled them to her side. For a moment the dog stood beside her in the dark while she slept. Then, catching a familiar scent, he walked toward the opening, and out again into the city streets.